Roseola

This Roseola started a week ago in Thursday, when I had sudden high to moderate fever ever since. From Sunday to Monday I was back to my home town, Surabaya and I really took my time to have fun, and somehow felt all healthy (yeah, the power of mind! :D). In Monday morning, along with the cool down stage of the body temperature, the rash appeared. Once those red spots come out covering all of your body, you can be at ease because the virus becomes less contagious for other people and it is not long until you are fully recovered. Some medicine you could take for this disease is one that contains acethaminophen to reduce the fever, you can find it in Decolgen. You can't do nothing about the rash except waiting patiently for it to disappear on its natural course. Just get enough rest, and wooshhh like magic you wake up one morning and realize you are no longer a monster. :D

Moral of you being sick is you can earnestly tell yourself that you need to be grateful of your healthy times. It is also as a reminder for you that once you are recovered, use your times to do only useful things, throw away your tv series, dramas, etc, kekeke... (talk big, hah :P)

Another moral is you can see some people actually care about you and let you know that they care. When people show their caring toward you, it means that they concern about what you really think about them. I always think I don't deserve that kind of honor, their concern. Thinking that they felt for me and took their time just wishing me to recover soon or giving some suggestions to speed up the recovery, not all people can and are willing to do that, I am just so thankful.

The ones that used to be people you regularly hangout with in the past, no longer see you  right now in their everyday life, thus what you think is kind of unimportant for them. They mostly choose to ignore the fact that you are sick except he/she is a real caring person. But it is different from people you are with now, because they are literally close to you, they easily develop a sympathy toward you and don't want you to think that they don't care.

It is extremely good to know that you still have some people in the category in which they still felt for you, do not let you feel you are nothing for them, care about you. Really grateful and wish I will always be someone who falls in this category from my friend's perspective.

Marriage from the Perspective of 22 Years Old Me

I had a phone call with my mother a couple days ago and somehow this topic came up. If you asked the 10 years old Niken or even the 20 years old one about this topic she would happily tell you that one of her wishes is getting married at young age in her early 20's. But if you ask me right now, this marriage thing will definitely freaking my self out. You know, the commitment, the freedom that you have while you were single and the additional parameters to consider when you decide things (not to mention your husband, your husband's parents, your husband's family, your child (?) XD~). I am not ready for this kind of thing anytime soon. Besides after reaching this age, somehow I realize I have so many dreams that even my body can't bear it :P and to be focus is all that matters. Marriage is out of the options for me if I want to achieve all of the dreams before I turn 27. Ckckck, the young me didn't really know what it was really like to marry someone... :P

Yeah, as expected, like most of parents in this lovely country we live in, my mother was totally in the opposite direction when I said that I didn't have any intention to get married before I reach 25. Seriously, Mommm, I know some great women out there who are just really cool even they are near 30 and haven't married yet. Well, the culture of this country seems to see badly the woman above 25 years old (if I am not mistaken) who has not married yet and also some of my boyfriends said that women pass 25 are less attractive than the younger ones regardless how good they are. If it is the case, then scenario here could be applied, like moving out to another country that is free of this perspective. The side-effect (the good one) is if I am lucky enough with this kind of "so-so" physical appearance and personality I could have a --kind, good manner, gentleman, witty, romantic, tall, slender, nice voice, nice eyebrows, nice eyes, nice nose, nice lip, nice skin, nice body, nice tapered finger, nice this, nice that, lol-- foreigner husband from a decent family (yeah, keep on dreaming me! :P). But if I am hopeless not doing good enough to catch a good "fish" over there, kekeke, I will just accept any man my parent choose for me. :)

It is sound too optimistic of me but I believe I won't be that worried later since whatever the scenario is, it is the best one God can possibly give me also I totally don't have enough resources to be picky am not that picky toward man I could go out with any of them as long as my family's cool about the guy. In addition, lucky me for having this small body as well as this kind of immature attitude, people are often mistaken me to a high school student or junior high student, so when I am 25 they would probably see me as a 20 young woman. Hahah! :P (so pathetic that I am actually proud about that, you are free to vomit, guys)

Well, please understand this post is written by 22 years old me (who still loads with positive energy and ain't no clear about what life can tell me about). We also know that people changes over time, who knows later on soon things would be different for me. :)

So that is all my current perspective about marriage, how about you? :)