A Day Off

Taking a day off today.
Feeling so guilty to leave the works behind. :(
Wondering why these recent days have been leaving me completely drained out.
The workload is not much different than before.
Every weekend has been jam packed with fun.
So, what with this tiredness? Boredom? Kind of likely. 

Anyway, truly blessed for having a really nice work colleague, she is utterly sweet and kind!
She gave me this kind of words in her email this morning:

It hit me with another instance of when a nice action we do, even we think it is something trivial like smiling, giving warm greetings, or sending message with nice words as my friend did, could give a significant impact beyond one could possibly imagine to other person/our surrounding. So, human, please try your best to always be nice ya, despite the hard time you have (if you have one). :P

Lastly, for everyone of you who read this post, please do eat properly, get sufficient rest, have enough fun, and as my friend, Stella, said above, do not push your self a way too hard in everything you do/focus on right now. Let yourself enjoy yourself a bit and cherish every second given in your life! :)

There is a day...

There is a day... when you think that everything you do in that day is just a waste. You spend your utmost effort, your time, your money, your energy, to only realize that those all just go in vain. Everything is so not meant to be. You feel like crying almost all the time in that day asking what is wrong with you, what is wrong with the world. You just do not know the answer except a piece of believe that it is just another scenario from your God, you see it bad but your God knows it better than you. And, yeah, you are success to endure everything in a whole day.

At the end of the day you actually feel grateful because, even though you have that kind of day, you are aware enough that there must be other people out there who have a so much worse day than you and you are not supposed to think that you are the one who has the hardest day in the earth. You also feel thankful at least you do not face a greater loss if it is another scenario happen that day otherwise but somehow... you just cannot hold your tears for not flowing, just like that, you lose yourself and you just let yourself in a miserable state......
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....... in a couple of seconds later you come back to your senses, feel so dumb and rush yourself to stop the tears... This kind of situation then encourages you to write stuff like this so that if you happen to face that kind of day again, in the future, you can look back to only realize everything will be alright, you overcome it somehow.

There is a day like that... and in that kind of day what you need is to just let go everything, be positive and believe that you can pass the consequences for the things that have already happened that day. Yes, all I need to do right now is to believe that these all will pass, everything will be alright... as always.

*This post has been in my draft for about a year, reluctant to post it because I think this writing is kind of lame and shows a weak part of me. But, finally after re-read it, hmmm, it is quite decent-lah to be a blog post. :P Even the detail of that day is quite vague right now, but yeah, the feeling back then, I can vividly remember. Glad that in the end, everything did become alright...