Roseola

This Roseola started a week ago in Thursday, when I had sudden high to moderate fever ever since. From Sunday to Monday I was back to my home town, Surabaya and I really took my time to have fun, and somehow felt all healthy (yeah, the power of mind! :D). In Monday morning, along with the cool down stage of the body temperature, the rash appeared. Once those red spots come out covering all of your body, you can be at ease because the virus becomes less contagious for other people and it is not long until you are fully recovered. Some medicine you could take for this disease is one that contains acethaminophen to reduce the fever, you can find it in Decolgen. You can't do nothing about the rash except waiting patiently for it to disappear on its natural course. Just get enough rest, and wooshhh like magic you wake up one morning and realize you are no longer a monster. :D

Moral of you being sick is you can earnestly tell yourself that you need to be grateful of your healthy times. It is also as a reminder for you that once you are recovered, use your times to do only useful things, throw away your tv series, dramas, etc, kekeke... (talk big, hah :P)

Another moral is you can see some people actually care about you and let you know that they care. When people show their caring toward you, it means that they concern about what you really think about them. I always think I don't deserve that kind of honor, their concern. Thinking that they felt for me and took their time just wishing me to recover soon or giving some suggestions to speed up the recovery, not all people can and are willing to do that, I am just so thankful.

The ones that used to be people you regularly hangout with in the past, no longer see you  right now in their everyday life, thus what you think is kind of unimportant for them. They mostly choose to ignore the fact that you are sick except he/she is a real caring person. But it is different from people you are with now, because they are literally close to you, they easily develop a sympathy toward you and don't want you to think that they don't care.

It is extremely good to know that you still have some people in the category in which they still felt for you, do not let you feel you are nothing for them, care about you. Really grateful and wish I will always be someone who falls in this category from my friend's perspective.

Marriage from the Perspective of 22 Years Old Me

I had a phone call with my mother a couple days ago and somehow this topic came up. If you asked the 10 years old Niken or even the 20 years old one about this topic she would happily tell you that one of her wishes is getting married at young age in her early 20's. But if you ask me right now, this marriage thing will definitely freaking my self out. You know, the commitment, the freedom that you have while you were single and the additional parameters to consider when you decide things (not to mention your husband, your husband's parents, your husband's family, your child (?) XD~). I am not ready for this kind of thing anytime soon. Besides after reaching this age, somehow I realize I have so many dreams that even my body can't bear it :P and to be focus is all that matters. Marriage is out of the options for me if I want to achieve all of the dreams before I turn 27. Ckckck, the young me didn't really know what it was really like to marry someone... :P

Yeah, as expected, like most of parents in this lovely country we live in, my mother was totally in the opposite direction when I said that I didn't have any intention to get married before I reach 25. Seriously, Mommm, I know some great women out there who are just really cool even they are near 30 and haven't married yet. Well, the culture of this country seems to see badly the woman above 25 years old (if I am not mistaken) who has not married yet and also some of my boyfriends said that women pass 25 are less attractive than the younger ones regardless how good they are. If it is the case, then scenario here could be applied, like moving out to another country that is free of this perspective. The side-effect (the good one) is if I am lucky enough with this kind of "so-so" physical appearance and personality I could have a --kind, good manner, gentleman, witty, romantic, tall, slender, nice voice, nice eyebrows, nice eyes, nice nose, nice lip, nice skin, nice body, nice tapered finger, nice this, nice that, lol-- foreigner husband from a decent family (yeah, keep on dreaming me! :P). But if I am hopeless not doing good enough to catch a good "fish" over there, kekeke, I will just accept any man my parent choose for me. :)

It is sound too optimistic of me but I believe I won't be that worried later since whatever the scenario is, it is the best one God can possibly give me also I totally don't have enough resources to be picky am not that picky toward man I could go out with any of them as long as my family's cool about the guy. In addition, lucky me for having this small body as well as this kind of immature attitude, people are often mistaken me to a high school student or junior high student, so when I am 25 they would probably see me as a 20 young woman. Hahah! :P (so pathetic that I am actually proud about that, you are free to vomit, guys)

Well, please understand this post is written by 22 years old me (who still loads with positive energy and ain't no clear about what life can tell me about). We also know that people changes over time, who knows later on soon things would be different for me. :)

So that is all my current perspective about marriage, how about you? :)

The Odd Happened

Once upon a time, there were a boy and a girl who had this kind of conversation:

The girl: "How would you describe your ideal woman?"  

The boy: "You. Someone like you could only exist in my prayers. Someone as beautiful, as cute, as care, as fun, as kind, as sincere, as smart, as perfect, as everything as you are. You are just a dream comes true for me.You can not tell how much I thank the Lord for every single time we spend together. How about you?"

The girl: "Me too. I had never let my self to even set a slightly thought that someone could be as amazing as you are, not only amazing but love me that much. When I think of someone like you actually do everything you have done to me, I am just amazed and can not ask anything more in life, really grateful." 

The boy: "We are just lucky to have met each other. "

But since that very moment, they both realized they were not meant to each other.

printf("Error. The odd happened.");
exit(1); 

What is the reason for this odd thing, they, who got that kind of  "not meant to be together" idea when both of them said they were each other's type? Yeah, exit(1) is general and can be anything odd. You guess.

*I should be working on a project but instead, I am writing stuff like this. Yeah, I have my reason :) and now let's get back to work.

Quora... Finally!

It took me quite some times to just sign up on that site. I tried from my pc, clicked sign up button and refreshed the screen multiple times, but they kept showing me the message "Sorry, we're not ready for you to join Quora yet." -_- I googled it to find the solution and they suggested that I needed to have an invitation from other people who had already joined Quora or to enter the site through mobile phone.

I tried to enter the Quora site from my mobile phone. It was going all smooth until they asked me to fill sign up form but even I had already filled in the form, the create account button was still disabled. *sigh I refreshed the screen and redid the steps needed like hundreds times :P but still I faced the same condition. *quadruple sigh

Last attempt, I asked the only friend I knew who had the Quora account to invite me, I got the invitation and followed the link, but again I still got the message "Sorry, we're not ready for you to join Quora yet." Zzz... I googled again but I couldn't get any clue to resolve that matter because seemed no one had faced the same problem like mine. I had an assumption in mind maybe it would work if I was a US citizen. I was going to get the US ip address but kinda having a worry that it could violate laws or something, yet I still... did it, kekeke, not exactly "did it" actually, what I have done can't be counted as an illegal attempt whatsoever. :P Then so I managed to enter the site using that way, everything was going smoothly as expected and finally I got my Quora account. Yay. What an effort. -_-

Rrr, actually, tomorrow I am going to have a job interview but what on earth am I doing right now???

Bandung is Really Something

After living about 20 years and 8 months without even a single chance to go there, ironically, this past 1 year and 3 months, I have been to that city six times already. In each of those trips, I always gained, what you say, different lessons to learn about myself which significantly affected my perception toward several things in life.

I was like taking a 180 degrees sharp turn in seeing things that I used to believe in most of the time before each trip. I reflect to myself and I am surprised that I actually become a completely different person inside afterwards. Seems like I had gradually changed before each trip and the moment there was so right so that they existed as my turning point... Is it? Isn't it? I am not sure but one thing is clear after the last trip: I am not the same person as a couple days ago, I see "that thing" differently right now which makes me feel sad yet so much relieve.

Ahahah, suddenly, I feel somewhat too carefree, what is my real intention to jot this down, I wonder. Maybe this is what others often say as "kegalauan", however, even my intention is not that clear I do have some motives behind this, I tell you, :P but let's just skip that. :)

Mmm, before I end this post I want to share another life lesson I learned yesterday which is to be in control on things that we have in mind and in our spoken words. Seriously, no one deserves unfounded judgement towards him/her, right? It also goes the same with words, no one deserves harsh words or an offensive satire just because we think that person deserves it. No, he/she doesn't deserve it all. I believe everyone does it unintentionally which makes it more cruel. Is by nature humans are that wicked when it comes to defend their own self? :( I want to believe that the answer is no, therefore I said to myself that I need to be extremely more cautious to avoid doing that kind of thing to others. Put more effort and always spend another one second, and another one assuring that my state of mind and words I speak hurt nobody.

It would be wonderful if everyone is in cooperation with each other to create a great time together and keep in their mind to always try their best in giving others a good time... :) but why is it barely happened? :( Is it an another NP-complete problem, given a set of people, will they have a good time together? I guess we can also consider it as an NP-hard because too many variables involved to assess one person. Ah, seems like I start to digress my topic and talk a total nonsense, when smarty mathematicians out there read it, they most likely to say "you show your dumbness-lah, you nda nyambunglah, it is irrelevant, how could you model it like that and define it as NP problem". Whatever, it's time to sleep I guess.