After living about 20 years and 8 months without even a single chance to go there, ironically, this past 1 year and 3 months, I have been to that city six times already. In each of those trips, I always gained, what you say, different lessons to learn about myself which significantly affected my perception toward several things in life.
I was like taking a 180 degrees sharp turn in seeing things that I used to believe in most of the time before each trip. I reflect to myself and I am surprised that I actually become a completely different person inside afterwards. Seems like I had gradually changed before each trip and the moment there was so right so that they existed as my turning point... Is it? Isn't it? I am not sure but one thing is clear after the last trip: I am not the same person as a couple days ago, I see "that thing" differently right now which makes me feel sad yet so much relieve.
Ahahah, suddenly, I feel somewhat too carefree, what is my real intention to jot this down, I wonder. Maybe this is what others often say as "kegalauan", however, even my intention is not that clear I do have some motives behind this, I tell you, :P but let's just skip that. :)
Mmm, before I end this post I want to share another life lesson I learned yesterday which is to be in control on things that we have in mind and in our spoken words. Seriously, no one deserves unfounded judgement towards him/her, right? It also goes the same with words, no one deserves harsh words or an offensive satire just because we think that person deserves it. No, he/she doesn't deserve it all. I believe everyone does it unintentionally which makes it more cruel. Is by nature humans are that wicked when it comes to defend their own self? :( I want to believe that the answer is no, therefore I said to myself that I need to be extremely more cautious to avoid doing that kind of thing to others. Put more effort and always spend another one second, and another one assuring that my state of mind and words I speak hurt nobody.
It would be wonderful if everyone is in cooperation with each other to create a great time together and keep in their mind to always try their best in giving others a good time... :) but why is it barely happened? :( Is it an another NP-complete problem, given a set of people, will they have a good time together? I guess we can also consider it as an NP-hard because too many variables involved to assess one person. Ah, seems like I start to digress my topic and talk a total nonsense, when smarty mathematicians out there read it, they most likely to say "you show your dumbness-lah, you nda nyambunglah, it is irrelevant, how could you model it like that and define it as NP problem". Whatever, it's time to sleep I guess.
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